Good Evening World,
Today my daughter, Yasmine, informed me that she wants to see “This is It”. The dillema is that I don’t know if I can handle watching it. I certainly can’t send her to the movies alone. I do understand that this is something that she and I must do together, but at the same time I would hate to be a crying, snot bubbling mess at the movie theater. I wish that she and I could have a private screening. That way we could really watch it and deal with the emotions that would come while watching it. Even though I did not have a close relationship with my brother Michael, I still knew every detail about his life up until the very end. I’m starting to get choked up so thats all I have to say. 
48 Responses to “A Hard Decision”
Hey Joh’Vonnie. I’m a Janet fan and must say I’m really shocked that Janet has never embraced you, because normally she’s somebody that i look up to, in many situations i think, what would Janet do? Because she seems really intelligent and always seems to have very good morals and values. So now that I recently found out she never reached out to you, I’m really dissapointed in her. You can’t help it that your father was with another woman outside their family. You were/ are an innocent child.
I really hope you can forgive them and they will reach out to you someday… I’m really speechless how someone like Janet, handled it this way…
Do you sing too Joh’Vonnie?? Im curious how you sound
by the way, i just saw the song Special in your playlist. That happends to be my number one fav song by Janet. It means so much to me. Cool that it also does to you.
Hi Joh`Vonnie, I’ve been meaning to reach out to you for a while now. Not because of your last name, but because of your first. I never met anyone with almost the pronounciation, nor, spelling of my first name. The only difference in our names is the first part (Joh`Vonnie and mine is Ja`Vonnie). I thought I was the only one with a name as such to be honest. LOL
As for your mixed emotions on wanting to see or taking your daughter to see TII, I totally feel you. I was a bit happy, yet scared, excited, but bitter, all rolled into one. However to be honest with you, I’m glad I did decide to go and view it on Halloween night in Los Angeles. It gave me that sense of closure I needed since that awful day in June. Us fans never honestly got a way to make peace with MJ being gone. And this movie, kinda gives us that. Nevertheless, I would have been more appreciative if we were at least able to go and lay flowers at his final resting place. Or just have a place where we could sit quietly in our thoughts and reminice on the good times we all endured in being Michael Jackson fans.
Anyway, I hope that you will find some type of courage and take your babygirl. As with me, this may very well be the closure you both need. At least until you see Mike again. =)
Take care, and God Bless you and yours…
Ja`
**Meant to add**
We have A LOT in common as well. We were almost born in the same year, I’m ‘73 and your ‘74, correct? And we also resemble a bit. Within the fan community, people swore up and down that I was you. I had to keep denying this fact to the point that I had to actually post a picture of myself. Then they had the nerve enough to say either you and I looked alike or Joseph and I resembled. LOL
Just wanted to give you a good laugh at least for a moment. Take care, sweetheart… =)
Ja`
Hi Joh’Vonnie,
It’s okay to cry - I bawled through nearly the whole movie, used up half a box of tissue, and ate popcorn like it was going out of style. You WILL cry, that is for sure, but it will be a good cry. Maybe you should go to a show time later in the evening or the first showing of the day during a weekday. I bet it will be less crowded. The film was so powerful with all of the music surrounding me, I really felt the emotions behind the music and you could just feel how much love and devotion Michael was putting into the tour. See it when you are ready but see it in the theater for the power of the sound and the experience of it all. You’ll get a good cry out of it and when all is said and done maybe it will bring a little closure. I feel more at ease out Michael’s passing now that I’ve seen the truth about his rehearsals instead of all the gossip. My heart goes out to you Joh’Vonnie!
Peace * Love * Harmony
Nicole
Hi joh Vonnie, I saw This is it ,with my daughter. It was very emotional for me . I loved it but honestly I had a hard time seeing Micheal looking so thin.While I think that he still had “It” I felt like he was only a fraction of what he used to be. Jackie said that he was just going thru the motion and wasnt giving his all to the rehersal but he would have probably given 2000 percent at the shows.
I am still glad that I went though.I will probably buy the dvd when it comes out. He was an amazing talent and a very complicated man.
I wish that I would have gotten to see him in concert. The you tube videos of his live performances are so good.
I grew up loving J5 and Michael.I have to be honest though, the last 10 years or so left me scratching my head. I never figured Michael for the type to get hooked on anything . I am still in shock over that. I believe that he was a good guy ,I just wish that someone could have prevented this from happening to him. This is such a tragedy.
I hope that you will talk about your feelings .Maybe you should write a book. Why not? At least you have a connection to him. I am sure there are already books coming together by people who were never as close as you. Would it be a betrayal? I am sure people will say that . But people are going to talk no matter what. I think your story deserves to be told. The fact is that people will be talking about you family forever because they have made such an impact on us.And no family is perfect .Joe Kennedy was a bootlegger and look at how people view his family.They are like American royalty.
I hope that I am not out of line but I just want to know the whole story and I think that millions of fans would snap the book right off the shelves. Take care.
I am not tryin to start anything. But why is it Janet’s responisble to reach out?
I truly belive it is Joseph responisblity to bring everyone together. It is Joseph who is the link between everyone. The sibling didn’t make this situation. So why is people blaming them? I am so confused. They are just as innocent.
P. S
People want to know the whole story, but the others siblings haven’t came out publicly and spoken directly about this situation. The siblings are the ones who made the fame. The siblings are the ones who made the money. Now everyone wants to take advantge of them, becuause of what their father did?
That is messed up. Parents messed up and now the other siblings are being blamed for it.
Joh it’s normal for you to have those mixed feelings about This Is It.
I saw it the other week and I tried to hold back my tears throughout the whole movie. In terms of Michael’s appearance he looked *very* skinny . The songs and dance are amazing, of course.
He was more than an idol to me…..you know, I was a kid when Thriller came out in 1983…….. and since then I became a staunch fan ……..he was more than a singer, he was a TRUE ARTIST with capital letters.
I am still shocked and extremely sad, I can’t even imagine how you can feel………
Hugs xxx
Chiara
Hi Johvonnie,
A few weeks ago I thought I did not want to see it but then I changed my mind, and I am glad I did, because the movie was great and I am glad I saw it. Mj looked skinny like people already have said but at the same time he sure still could both sing and dance. I understand this must be harder for you though but I think you should see it.
Just one thing Joh I want to tell you:
you are a nice,strong young woman who has NO faults.And I am sorry to hear that you had to endure all this pain throughout your life.
I looked you up when I heard of your story and I discovered a truly intelligent,friendly and nice woman.Remember Joh you have no faults!!! Take care of yourself and keep us updated on your life.
Hugs
xoxo
Chiara
joh vonnie
i left you a message on your last post - did you get it? if so, can you delete my website address
i prayed for you last night
xo
Hey Joh”v ,
hey i was gonna say this is it will surprise u as it did me but i realize ur situation. anyway, i was serious about that call girl, I miss urt sexy voice. Listen when u get sad thinking about Mike, look at my facebook picture, lol. it’ll make u smile if not laugh! but for real, call me i been having a spell.
keaston
hey ms. Johvonnie it is your daughter friend i just wanted to say hi and tell your daughter hi. I did not know if you wanted me to say her name in public bye!!!!!!!
Hi Linda. Thank you for stopping by and leaving a comment. I’m thinking about seeing. I’m not sure when but I know I will see it. Peace, Love and Happiness.
Hi Kimari. Everyone knows who Yasmine is. Are you and Yasmine going to church together on Saturday?
Keaston, my love, the chicken soup for my soul. I love you. You keep your nose in those law books! Anyways, Keaston, I’ll call you soon. I’m sorry I haven’t been back in touch. I’ve just been in la la land, literally. I’ve been having major mind farts. Take care of yourself. Talk to you soon. kiss kiss to my big attorney.
Joyketa, what does money have to do with anything? Money is the least of all of our worries. Everybody that is Joe Jackson’s child is an innocent person here. I don’t know where you get your information from, but people are entitled to think what they want to think and say what they want to say. Peace out
I was afraid to see it too. It was too soon for me. I was surprised I did not cry but I left with a helluva lump in my throat. (lol) I think I did not cry becuase for some reason I forgot he was gone. I felt like he was still alive and ok until the song man in the mirror came on then it all came back to me. I was sick. I tried my best not to cry becuase I didnt want to upset my son.
Although he has always been skinny he has never looked like that before. I feel they took footage from weeks before he died and pieced it together to make them look good. They know that all he needed was rest but they would not give him a break.
In my heart I feel if it were not for this tour he would still be with us.
But you cannot avoid it. You must see it for closure.
Hey Tiffany. I love when my Facebook family stops by and leave a comment. I can understand where you’re coming from even though I can never forget that hes gone. Eventually, I’ll get around to seeing This is It. Sometimes I feel like a big wimp. Take care of yourself and Happy Monday to you.
I think you need to grow up. Those siblings had nothing to do with your father having an affair. They don’t owe you anything. They can chose who to embrace and who they don’t want to embrace. We are talking about grown individuals. I pray that Joe pieces this together. Those involved in the affair are responsible. I am so sorry you and the famous siblings had to suffer for these actions. I wish you many blessings.
Hi Joh,Vonnie,
My prayers and thoughts go out to you. Let Go & Let God!!!
Peace
hi Joh Vonnie
see if Yasmine’s grandmother on her father’s side could take her if feal ok about that.
least noone would know who her grandmother is or get Yasmine ask her i sure she love to.
I wish your own brother would treat you with Respect
Ms. Jackson.
I am not suprised at all that you can write well. It is appears to be a God given gift that He has bestowed on you and all your half-siblings, since some of them have been Grammy winners.
I read somewhere that you worked in a airport and am curious if you have been going to college or perhaps have a college degree?
You seem to be a warm and fun person and could easily see you in the nursing or teaching fields.
STFU and have a good night.
True dat girl… Peace, Love and Chicken Grease
Ok girl, I’ll see. Thanks for stopping by
Wow are you psychic? I actually did teach first grade special ed. That was the most rewarding job… working with children. Thanks for stopping by.
Hi joh Vonnie
i just wanted to know does anyone visted
neverland on tours? do you know if they do?
i love tour it in future if i can. thorght i ask you know to sure.
I to think you need to grow up you are 30 years old for gods sake.How in the world do you think a family that was so close growing up all of a sudden should take in a bastard shild which was probably hidden for years anyway.You need to go to youre daddy and cry to him about this,he probably has more of you bastards out there somewhere where you can all join together that youre not accepted,and more than likely if there wasnt money invovled that the family has you could care less about knowing any of them or coming out in public,sounds like you have a lot of youre daddy in you
kirsty, kirstyns or whatever the hell your name is. The last time I checked, you’re on my website. Sweetheart, know what you’re talking about before you leave a comment. Trust me, I’m not waiting by a phone, but remember this sweetie… you’re water, I’m blood. Blood will always be thicker than water. So get your news early sweetie. Ta Ta
P.S Hope you’re enjoying Misery (oh Missouri) haha
Hi Mandy, Thanks for stopping by. At this moment no one is touring Neverland, but that would be a fabulous idea.
Hi Joh’Vonnie , you really remembered me of a long time friend of my, everytime when i see your pictures. You are a very beautiful woman. Stay like this. Cheers
Nicky
dont worry about the haters girl lol keep posting lol u havent post in a while
Hi,
I love all the Jacksons! I have no negative comments about any of them! I used to watch the variety show in 76 and 77 when I was 4. My parents took my family to see the Jacksons in 1979, it changed my life! From that point forward I was addicted, I was always drawn to Michael from the first time I saw him and my love for him never wavered! I saw him in concert again in 1984 and 2001 and I met him in 2001.
I hope one day you will have the relationship with them you wish for, I will keep you in my prayers as I do with your extended family. Good luck and God be with you. You are a beautiful! Of course you are, you’re a Jackson!
…miss you. i had a dream bout u i wanted to tell u bout. dont wiorry, altho ur sexy it wasn’t like that. i really miss talkin to ya, bud. see ya johv
Joh, do not allow the evil ‘bastards’ to get on your nerves. They are just jealous because they are not family.
Take heart that they hate on the family just as much as they hate on you.
I love Joe Jackson and all the work he did for his family. Shame the media is trying to use him as a scape goat now that Mj has gone.
I am presently reading Joe’s book on his life. He published it in German and a fan translated it. The book is one of the most interesting of all the Jackson books I’ve read. I wonder if you could ask him to publish it in English for those of us who would like to read it in English.
You are an excellent writer, keep it up and don’t allow haters to get you down. Those people have no home training. God bless you girl.
So have you seen the movie yet? Have Joseph ever said, sorry to his family for the hurt he cause them?
I hope before Joseph leaves this earth he gets things right with them. As soon as the Jacksons made it in show business he cheats on his wife and forgets to be a father to his kids, instead of being a manager. It is a shame Joseph never allowed them to be kids. It is a shame Joseph never showed any appreciation to those 9 kids for making the JACKSON name famous, cause if Katherine didn’t give birth 2 those 9kids, it wouldn’t be know Jackson Family. He owe Katherine alot, cause we all know Joseph couldn’t make it as a entertainer so he use his kids, so he could be a celebrity.
Joketa, I know you must be a hardcore Jackson fan, but understand that people make mistakes, they learn from them, and eventually get over it. Stop coming on here making comments about the same thing as if I don’t know anything about the situation. I know way more about the situation than you do so stop coming on here acting as if you know it all. Believe me, you don’t know every single detail, but I can tell you that a lot of things were resolved a long time ago and there’s still wounds that will heal over time…thats LIFE. We are all adults here. If an adult can’t get over a human mistake then so be it. I will continue to tell my side of the story whether you like it or not and that goes for everyone else. This site was created for positive reasons. So please do not come back on here if you do not have good things to say because next time your comments will go to spam.
HI JO!
I SENT YOU A MESSAGE A WHILE AGO . BUT I DON’ T KNOW WHAT HAPPENED?? WHETHER JANET OR THE REST OF THE KLAN ACCEPT YOU OR NOT, LIFE GOES ON AS WELL AS TIME . YOU ARE NOT A KID. YOU ARE A MOTHER. LIFE IS TOO SHORT TO BE TRIPPIN. LIVE AND LET LIVE.
Hi Joh’Vonnie,
I don’t know how your blog about going to see the movie turned into how you feel about your brothers and sisters acceptance but some how it did so I guess I’ll talk about it all. First, have you seen the movie yet? If not take your time I understand how you feel (at least i think i do). I know how it feels to be that kid that in the siblings eyes “get the special treatment”. Though my sisters accepted me with loving arms when i found them after 16 years of absence my sister eventally told me later on that she felt like I was the one my dad liked more. For people who tell you that you should grow up, they can KICK ROCKS and BLOW BUBBLES rejection is a indescribable feeling that hurts even when the wound seems like it’s healing.
I hope one day they will come around but for right now be strong my big sis in Christ!
Hi! I just wanted to say that I hope you will be able to watch This is It with your baby girl. It made me feel like Michael was still with us.
p.s. I think there are some mean people in this world and they’ve taken out the time to post comments on ur blog. Just want to say, i admire the way you handle them.
*hug*
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Hi Joh’Vonnie, i’m sorry for you loss with your brother Michael Jackson. God bless and take care!
Psalm 73:26
My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.
…you’re such a big opportunist hypocrite….
Hey K…from Peru. I love knowing that I have a hater in South America. Enjoy the bananas asshole!
THIS IS IT IS GREAT I LOVE IT N SO DO MY 5YRS OLD DAUGHTER WE WILL NEVER GET OVER MICHAEL
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